The Secrets ♥

Sunday, May 31, 2009 { 8:32 PM }

mit her over at her place...
went upper thomson to have YONG TAO FU...
wa so FULL...

den bus to bugis..
walk awhile , den cab to amk for movies...
NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2...

but was like wantin to fall aslp kind..
didnt slp last late=(

den back home early tonight as i hav to work early in the morning...

happily drinking and photo... hahaha...
a little drunk le...
all thanks to Kenneth lo..

{ 11:02 AM }

went m)phosis to get shoes...
the shop is ina mess!!!
cos its SALES...

was crowded there...
total brought 3 shoes..
cos its all 50% - 70%

good deal...

its all about care....

Thursday, May 28, 2009 { 12:30 AM }

loving you is my greatest thing in my life nw...
loving you was a happiest in mi..
though i am not been treated well enough..
~~hurt by you...~~
those unhappy moments we had tgt..
and ya..
i accepted the facts...
i have to hold back my tears every nw and den...
i need to have the courage...

and its feel really sucks..
i wouldnt want to let you see mi cry out of sudden..
i have to hold back...

but i was happy that i once have you by my side..
being loved by you...
being there for mi..
being the one who take care of mi..
being there when i fall..
being there when i cry..
being sweet enough to cook for mi
using ur efforts to do all the things that you have done for mi...

i appreciated you so much!

if i could,
i would want to turn back the clock.
to the veri first time...
where you treated mi best...

i didnt blame...
and maybe it could be my fault that i treated you so well
till it become an relie to you...

your love give mi the feeling, that the best is still ahead
you never give up on mi, and that's what keep mi going

imissyoubaby!

Monday, May 25, 2009 { 10:40 PM }

everything is going to be alright...

no matter wat...
my love for u will still be the same...
im waiting...

im missing you every moment....

the things i can do is waiting...
i love you!

Sunday, May 24, 2009 { 11:06 PM }

im no longer there to get wat u wanted...
and even ur breakfast lunch and dinner...
no longer doin anything for u..
and oso my FRIED RICE!!=)
miss it rite....
~~too bad...~~

from nw..
u have to do everything by urself...
jiayou ar!!>

we will see the result soon!!

Saturday, May 23, 2009 { 11:26 PM }

everything has stopped....
its a solution....

u mus take care of yourself alright...
i cant be there for u to take good care for u anymore...
pls be more INDEPENDENT !
jiayou...

and it has to be like tis...
dun worry...
i will be strong!
you too ok?

rmb to eat ur breakfast,lunch and dinner hor...

i will miss you badly in my heart!

huggin the things tat belong you u...
i couldnt hug u nw!

Thursday, May 21, 2009 { 10:17 PM }

wasnt really great....
things is gonna be wrong!
things gonna be changing...
its nt going to be the way we once said...

wat should i do?
do i have to keep insisting?
am i going to lie to myself?

nth could ever describe my feeling...

i couldnt stop crying once those things were in my mind..
even im watch show nw...
i still cry..
cos its similar to my situation...

Wednesday, May 20, 2009 { 10:51 PM }

the things tat you say...
it keep running thru my mind again and again...
and keep repeatin and repeating..
it jus could go off..

and started to think n think alots....
and tears rolling down again and again...

iwillnvletyougo...

~~its all started bcos of YOU!~~

Monday, May 18, 2009 { 9:58 PM }

im sorry!!!

after all i still care for u...
did you????

not even a msg...

i wanted but not
i tell myself nt to..
i have to control and nt throwing my temper at you..
tats why im owas like tis..
i swallow all the sadness in...
but why i have to?

~~there reason behind it...~~

imissyou...

Friday, May 15, 2009 { 11:15 PM }

was totally veri tired today..
its nt working tired but was nt enough slp ytd..=(
and my poor baby is having whole body aching nw...
(massage)

turn in soon alright...
have a good early rest tonight..
and stop watching tat show hor..
(so am i)
im freaking tired la
eyes closing but still wanna watch..

by 11.30pm u should be in the room resting le k?
(u said awhile hor..)

rest well tonight
and choing for 2moros business...
jiayou gals...

poor us...
having burned scar!!!
pls apply med alright baby..
cos ur burn is the worst..
(heartpain)

slp early baby...
im going to slp soon...
nitexs everyone!
slp tight=)
miss mi alright.. haaha...

Thursday, May 14, 2009 { 11:56 PM }

baby came over today...
fried spicy wedges for you!!
nice rite?
hahahha....

mei sing over at tpy..
went for interview...

den back t baby hse
den watch TWILIGHT

den dinner over at amk KFC...
yummy!!!=)

back to slack..

Monday, May 11, 2009 { 11:44 PM }

jux came back celebrating belated mother day..
im so FULL now..
cos before that went to eat mac with baby...

went over to mit baby in the afternoon for breakfast plus lunch tgt with sing and ling...

den back home play mahjong..
addicted..

den slp slp slp...

present from my baby=)
from malaysia

my fav bubble cushion

and three sheets of powerpuff girls stickers=)

thanks baby

im hugging it nw=)

Sunday, May 10, 2009 { 11:06 PM }

HAPPY MOTHER DAY MUMMY!

didnt have any celebration with mummy..

~~OMG~~ baby u lie to mi...
told mi u nt coming back with them...
but my 6 sense told mi tat u will be back...
dun xiao xiao hor..
my 6 sense veri accurate de lo...
but ur surprise has been ruin by yourself..
hahahha...
so miss you u know??

woke up in the morning to do those unfinished thingy
luckily i manage to finish it all in the evening time...
but im sorry baby...
i forget to gt myself herbal tea today

was wanted to bake cookies but no toaster.. s
o end up do chocolate cornflakes
its bell idea...
last min idea...

baby acc mi for dinner.
and oso to pass her the presentss..
hope you like it=)
went to slack awhile and back home....

im glad u are back!!

and where my present??

my present for you...
learn to fold turtles...
and was all inside the box,,,
sorry if its unperfect..
cos its my first time folding it.. =)

was my first time doing this oso..
anyhow anyhow onli...
will be perfect after a few times...lols..
this was really last min thingy..

the album...
didnt upload all the pages...
the days when there were no you

and this..
ur fav LA BI XIAO XIN!!

Saturday, May 9, 2009 { 2:05 PM }

ytd night when to mit my gals at clake quay...
waited for them like 1 hr plus...
so went to hav my dinner alone=(
poor mi...

met birthdae gal at 9 plus..
den walked over to ZICRA
end up to REBEL
cos zicra havin an event..
after 11.30pm den its open for us...
so we went in to REBEL first > ZICRA > LUNAR

after all still find REBEL better..=)

gt myself a little drunk...
happily dancing over at the dance floor..
hahhaa... was really crowded...

cab home at 2am
fun day gals

its the second day....
i really miss you baby...
no matter hw fun i play..
my heart still thinking of u every sec

Friday, May 8, 2009 { 12:59 PM }

im back from khatib..
when to mit baby for breakfast...

and nw baby has gone to malaysia..
and i wouldnt know how long will she be there...
and i didnt know when will she be coming back..

and i really started to miss her so badly!!!!!!!

its really not use to it without her..
no calls or anything...

but i will still wait for ur calls and msg....

* baby pls take care good care of yourself alright...
dun fall sick hor..
i will for sure know u will grow FATTER!
ah ma owas cook nice food! =)
i will be waiting for you return...

i love ur smile.. imissyoubaby

{ 12:22 AM }

went out with jess today...
went bugis shop..
it been long since i shop..
feel so sian after walking few time...
like so tired...
keep yawnin while shopping..
maybe i lose interest in SHOPPING!! hahahhhaa

brought tops today..
didnt really spent much...
brought mochi ice cream of my baby..
hope you like it..=)

babyimgonnamissulikehell!!!!
really???
ihopeiwontcryanymore...
baby i will wait for you..

baby dun heart itchy itchy hor...
surprisess.. =))

Wednesday, May 6, 2009 { 11:30 PM }

its all hidden... hidden with lies comfort pls... living jus like loneliness

*drinking liquor alone

我不会犯你犯过的错误#
我不会让我自己#
导致我的心情如此苦恼#
我不会破坏你的方式#
你坚强的倒下#
我已经学会那条艰辛的道路#
去不让它永远都到那里为止#
因为你#
我从来不远离人行道#
因为你#
我学会在安全的地方玩耍所以就不会受伤#
因为你#
我发现很难去相信自己以及所有在我身边的人#
因为你#
我害怕#
我迷失方向#
在你指出问题的不久前#
我不能哭#
因为你知道我的弱点#
我被迫去微笑.大笑,在我的生命当中的每一天#
我的心不可能碎# 甚至当它一开始就不是完整的#
因为你#
我从来不远离人行道#
因为你#
我学会在安全的地方玩耍所以就不会受伤#
因为你#
我发现很难去相信自己以及所有在我身边的人#
因为你#
我害怕#
我看着你死去#
我听见过你每天晚上在床上哭泣#
我当时太小#
你应该知道一些比依靠我更好的办法#
你从来没有考虑过别人的感受#
你只看见自己的伤痛#
现在我在深夜里哭泣#
也是为了同样谴责的事#
因为你#
我从来不远离人行道#
因为你#
我学会在安全的地方玩耍所以就不会受伤# 因为你#
我尽我最大努力去忘记所有事#
因为你#
我不知道如何容纳任何人#
因为你#
我为我的生活感到羞耻因为它是空的#
因为你#
我害怕#
因为你#
因为你#

livinginfullofmemories

{ 3:32 AM }

and im crying again nw for the same dame thing!

*thanks gals for ur concern!
avis,jess

Tuesday, May 5, 2009 { 10:17 PM }

happy 7!!

slp in the morning 7am
and woke up at 11am
jus dunno why couldnt get to slp...
have been thinking so much...
jus let it be hw its suppose to be like..
i dun even dare to think...

had mj today
and fried rice...

你在我心里占了这个位置
才能对你透露所有心
事眼前的一切风风雨雨
需要我们携手坚持
我在你的心里有多少位置
只有你自己最能够解释
我相信这答案是我乐意
见到的唯一表示

很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说你真的忘记了
爱了就有坚持理由
别说我会留在路口不会走
爱你会直到最後

~~prepared!~~

{ 12:02 AM }

clueless

i have nth more to say

Monday, May 4, 2009 { 1:08 AM }

i really so afraid...
had a veri bad cry ytd..
after you tolda mi something
i jus really feel like jumpin down
i m really gonna gone crazy

had a chat ytd midnight
was cryin and crying none stop...
everything is fine nw..
back to normal..
i hope we can be even better den nw.

really had s great chat jus nw..
over at bottle tree...
do share lots of ur things with mi ok..
cos i dun wan to see u sad over so much thing..
cos u will feel better and happier after telling mi right..
i will try to understand ok..
so dun worry i will nt be sad after hearing ok..?
dun feel like goin back
was really having so much great chat ya?
even u are saying things tat will make mi sad..
but baby..
i will owas be there for you ok?
will be ur listener ok?
lets cheer up alright my baby?=)

i really cant lose you baby..
i really dunno wat should i do if you are nt in my life anymore...
i jux felt lonely...
youaremybabynomatterwat

imissyoudearlybaby
<3>

there is owas a beautiful memories in us

Sunday, May 3, 2009 { 1:22 AM }

speechless

wat am i going to do if u really leave mi?
~~ireallyknowuwillleavemisoon!~~
ihopeicanbehappywithyou

cryingfordaysandnights

Friday, May 1, 2009 { 11:33 PM }

things had been happening again and again...
but after so many unhappiness and all the LIES tat u had lie to mi.
and nw..
im forgiving you..
and i dun wish to be hurt and hiding things from mi..

even though i already know u have been lying for so much u know urself ya...

i know u treasure mi veri much..
but all i wan is happiness between us...

i know hw much u love mi and even how afraid u lose mi..
it was so hurtful to see you crying
at the same time u telling mi ur love to mi and how appreciated

u had PROMISE to mi..
so i dun wish u will break it again
(if nt you will know wat song i will sing for you)lols